mix feelings

hi buddy! I wanna post some of my picts, these all take by me when I'm in a mix feelings and at the dark room. dunno why, all be different at that time. I feel so lonely, no one cares, but God do. I just kept smiling and shining all the day, but no one know what I'm doing at night. I'm crying, and I'm screaming. kinda get a blue feeling. just not happy, not sad, or not excited too. just usual...